Saturday, February 6, 2016

Locking yourself in.

Some part of you is locked and not shown to the public. That part is perhaps, the one you perceive as ugly, undeserving of attention from others. It might be true. But it might be false as well.

You have been shutting yourself out from people who really cares. Have you ever thought, that someone out there, is going to see that side of you and end up loving you more at their soul level? Just as much as you are able to show up in your innermost soul level?

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Almost End of Year Reflection

"We can't be brave in the big world without at least one small safe space to work through our fears and falls" - Brené Brown. .

I've been reading and learning on vulnerability this past year and I think it has helped me so much. Putting it into practice is one of the worst nightmares, to show up as whole person with highs and lows is not easy as it seems. Materially, I did not acquire much this year (except for books that are piling up!). But to have my inner self grow, that is a much better achievement. All good things are from Allah The Most High, and the weaknesses are all mine. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

 #halalfeetpose

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Toughened Up

It might goes against my principle, against my faith, against everything that I have learned. But sometimes you can't help it. Every action has its consequences.

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Bila Sampai Nanti

Mati itu sentiasa dekat.
Tanpa sedar ia selalu datang melawat
Menunggu detik dan tika
Bersediakah kita?

Pohon selalu pada Dia biar kita mati dalam iman bukan dalam alpa

Biar kita mati dengan hati bersih daripada cela dan noda

Sebab mati itu sentiasa menjengah dalam tidur dan jaga

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Why Feel?

"The more we feel our joy, the more we feel pain".

To be able to feel, is a gift in and of itself. But to really feel, it can be overwhelming. Scary so as to speak. Kalau tak, mana kan ada bidalan orang tua 'Kalau seronok sangat nanti, ada yang menangis pula". Which is true. So we shut down. We put up walls so high, nobody can come through. We thought we are safe now. But we're wrong.

We've created a barrier that no love can come in, and no love can pour out of that sacred heart of us. That, is a calamity. A calamity for the heart, for the soul. We are dead before our appointed time. Instead my love, embrace the feelings. Don't be afraid of them.

They are making you alive.

Friday, April 24, 2015

Cerita Rindu

Wahai angin,
Khabarkan pada sawah padi,
Hijaunya senantiasa memikat hati,
Sampaikan pada sang unggas,
Nyanyian merdunya seakan memanggil lekas,
Si pencinta alam dan kedamaiannya

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Cerita Makna

Dan bila mana bulan menampakkan dirinya, terbitlah cahaya gemerlapan di tabir bumi

Sekalian mergastua mula mengambil posisi, ayuh malam sudah tiba

Rehatlah.

Khabarnya esok matahari kan menyinari, setiap pelosok tidak akan terhindari

Bertebaranlah.

Kembali malam, kembali siang. Kembali malam, kembali siang.

Kembali begitu, kembali begini.

Cerita yang sama, diulang lagi.

Carilah makna dalam cerita yang sama. Jikalau tidak dicari makna, alahai kosongnya cerita.

Cerita itu, yang diulang.