Sunday, December 11, 2016

Do You Remember?

Remember. The time your mother said she's full even when she's not, just to let you have that last piece of chicken...

Remember. The time your father sacrificed his sleep, just to get you to the clinic...

Realise. Each time in prayer they think of you and make du'a upon du'a for you...

Realise. The lessons they teach, the advises they give, for your own wellbeing...

Think. Can they ever be replaced? Can you ever repay them?

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Dan daku pun berkata

Rentak tari si daun sireh
Lemah gemalai mengikut bayu
Kisah nan pilu terputus kasih
Cederanya hati siapa yang tahu

Tegak berdiri si pohon tanjung
Harum mewangi menyusup kalbu
Tak tahan sudah hati menampung
Rindu dan cinta pada yang Satu

Cantik tak terperi si akik sungai
Kemilau sinar merias jari
Dosa menggunung merintih hati
Taubat bersungguh kembali mensuci

Mekarnya seroja di tasik pesona
Ditemani penyair melantun cinta
Daku hambaMu yang hina dan dina
Tunjukkan daku jalan yang Kau redha

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Mawar merah ditaman

Bunga mawar mekar ditaman bonda,

Haruman nan indah menyisip segenap ruang,

Hati wanita jangan disentuh jika bukan niatmu untuk menyunting dirinya,

Biarkan saja dia menunggu yang pasti, yang buatkan hatinya riang.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

It is a Union of Two Souls

Marriage. The question kept coming when you're now in your late 20s. Some questions were not harmful, some were hurtful. Rare it is to find those who sincerely care. Once I received an unwanted commentary, 'when i was your age, i was already married'. I was about to say 'so?' but I brushed it away and laughed instead. I have come to the point where I am happy and enjoy being a single woman. I get to do a lot of things that I enjoy doing, not saying that marriage is going to take that away because I know when the time comes inshaAllah I will enjoy being married. But please understand that this is the state that I am currently in. Single, happy with my family and friends. Biting my nails about the future won't help me. Marriage to me is a sacred union of two souls who constantly want to grow, together. Let me put my hopes onto Allah, for He knows what is best for me. The best that you can do for me is pray for my happiness and not imposing your perspective on me and other women.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Aspired to be the Inspired

Being in a group of women with so many talents and gifts to offer has aspired me to become a better woman. A woman of substance.

To achieve that I myself have to go through a journey of realization and acceptance.

Accepting that I am a human with potentials to grow. Tap into myself and see the gifts that He The Majestic has given me. At the same time realizing that I can and I will make mistakes. It is part and partial of learning, no?

It is only when we're in the arena battling the challenges thrown at us that we will come out as a woman with substance.

La hawla wala quwwata illa billah.

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Locking yourself in.

Some part of you is locked and not shown to the public. That part is perhaps, the one you perceive as ugly, undeserving of attention from others. It might be true. But it might be false as well.

You have been shutting yourself out from people who really cares. Have you ever thought, that someone out there, is going to see that side of you and end up loving you more at their soul level? Just as much as you are able to show up in your innermost soul level?

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Almost End of Year Reflection

"We can't be brave in the big world without at least one small safe space to work through our fears and falls" - Brené Brown. .

I've been reading and learning on vulnerability this past year and I think it has helped me so much. Putting it into practice is one of the worst nightmares, to show up as whole person with highs and lows is not easy as it seems. Materially, I did not acquire much this year (except for books that are piling up!). But to have my inner self grow, that is a much better achievement. All good things are from Allah The Most High, and the weaknesses are all mine. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.