Some part of you is locked and not shown to the public. That part is perhaps, the one you perceive as ugly, undeserving of attention from others. It might be true. But it might be false as well.
You have been shutting yourself out from people who really cares. Have you ever thought, that someone out there, is going to see that side of you and end up loving you more at their soul level? Just as much as you are able to show up in your innermost soul level?